I haven’t done all that much. Not only have I not done much but I’ve been jumping from project to project as if I were aimless with no direction. Perhaps because I am, aimless and have little to no direction these days.
Right now I have three projects logged into Camp NaNoWrimo and I don’t think I’ve written on any of them except the romance project that I started back in the beginning of May. I have over 9,000 words on that one. I don’t want to write romance now though. The words are not coming to me and I’m not inclined to write about a woman and a man falling in love. Nothing wrong with that. We all need to fall in love with someone, right?
Then there’s the non-fiction project about becoming a witch. That has been an idea for quite a while but I don’t have the experience to write a non-fiction work and there is so much research to be done….. I feel overwhelmed.
Today, I added the new fiction. I think I can say that it will be a science fiction. I’ve never written science fiction but I don’t know what else to call it. I can say it’s dystopia but I don’t particularly like dystopian novels so I’m not sure what to label this one as. It’s just writing.
This new project makes more sense for the times. I think it came about as my way of trying to make sense of all the things going on and what is going on in my personal life. But as I write I lose interest in writing. It just feels like everything is so mundane compared to what is going on outside my four walls. The longer I stay out of the office the more I forget how it feels to get into a crowded subway or walk the street of New York City as if in a trance focused only on getting to the office and then once in the office focusing only on getting out of the office and out of the city which sometimes, as beautiful as it is, it becomes suffocating. The more I sit here and try to write the more my words seem to not have much meaning and the new project just sits there on my scrivener file staring back at me wondering if I’m going to open it and start the story at some point.
I wonder if we are ever going to have some type of normalcy.
I should be doing a book review now. It’s time. I finished reading the book over a month ago… I could be already two months and I have not taken the time to review it yet. I’m not sure why and I’m not going to try to come up with excuses. I could tell you that it’s because of NaNoWriMo which has been taken quite a bit of time and I could tell you, also, that it’s how busy my life has been … or better yet, I could tell you that I have decided to vlog my NaNo experience and the learning curve has been steep with YouTube so I’ve not had the time to dedicate to reviewing the book.
Although all those things are true. I have entered NaNoWriMo and have been busy trying, and failing, to meet my word count every day, I could have written the book review for you. I have been really busy at work but no more busy than I have been at any other point in my life. I have also decided to vlog my NaNo participation…. Now this one is new and the learning curve is super steep. I’ve never had so much trouble with my computer as when I’ve tried to get my videos from my library to iMovie. I think I finally got it to work but don’t ask me how.
So, why am I not reviewing the book you might be asking. Well, I don’t know. I liked it. I actually liked so much that I am thinking I want to write a historical novel. I don’t feel prepared to do that yet but I have a setting and I have a thought but I’m just not good at romance and the kind of historical novels I like always have a little bit of romance in them. Just a little, I hate all the gushy type of stuff. Just a hint makes it so much more interesting. Anyway, I’m going to learn and practice and perhaps I will write a historical romance novel one day.
So here is what I think the reason I have not reviewed the book is. I’ve been lazy and focused on other projects. Things that I need to do in order to survive. Nope, I’m not being dramatic. I’m being laid off from my job. Yep….. the place I’ve been for the past 8 years and the place where I thought I was going to stay forever… well until retirement. It was a shock, but not really. I have known for a while, a year, but now it’s real. I’m being shown the door and I’ve been having trouble figuring out how that makes me feel. I’m ok. I’m not suicidal or anything like that. I’m a little angry and a little upset and going through all the stages of grief so if you just give me a little time and indulge me in what I choose to write I promise the review will come.
I will say that the book is great. I really liked it so if you waiting for the review to know if you should buy it… there you go. I think you should and I think you should read it. Ohhh wait… I haven’t told you what book! Right.
The Carnegies’ Maid
The review will come in the next few days. I promise! I just need to get through some more stuff. In the mean time I hope you are enjoying some of my posts about NaNoWriMo. Please go visit my YouTube channel where I will giving you a glimpse of my life trying to get through NaNoWriMo and keeping a sense of humor.
thank you so much for understanding. I’m going to go put in a few more words for my NaNo novel and then write a review….
NaNoWriMo is upon us and as nervous as I was before it started I think my nerves have calmed down. I figure out what I’ll be writing and now it’s just a time to find time to write. Between day one and day two I wrote 4,495 words. Then this happened 🙂
I thought I’d vlog my process and originally the idea was to upload it to Youtube but I’ve not been able to do that. I want to have something to look back on and remember the process. I don’t know about you but when I accomplish a goal I rarely think of about what it took to get me to that point. There are some lessons learned and I can remember those but I imagine that watching the process will be an added bonus.
Today is day 3 and I have been sitting in front of my computer for a while now. In my defense I have been fighting with iMovie and trying to figure out how to get this video on here and on Youtube. I think I finally figured it out. Good luck to me and if you’re writing during NaNoWriMo, good luck to you as well. Please leave a comment below and let me know what you’re writing about.
I promised myself that this is where I would be taking accountability for this #NaNoWriMo adventure I’ve put myself on. Like I don’t have enough adventures … I don’t…. but that’s not the point. The actual point is that I don’t have the time…. I do….. but again, that’s not the point.
Last weekend, and let’s be clear, 2 weeks before the actual NaNoWriMo starts I basically abandoned the novel planning and decided that my story would be best told in a scrip format.
Really? a script? What do I know about script writing? absolutely nothing …. then again, what do I know about novel writing. So if I’m going to do this should I be going with my instincts? considering that my experience with novel writing and script writing is about the same (nothing) then why not go with my instincts?
Having said all this, I am stressed out. I have completely abandoned all the work that I put into planning a novel. It was IT IS such a great idea. It’s not wasted. It’s still there and it will be there for when I’m ready to finally write it. My stress is that I now have 2 weeks to start the writing marathons and I have not planned my anything. I don’t even know how to begin writing. WHAT? I’m not even sure I have story!!!!
I told you, if you stick around this place you’ll always have an adventure around the corner. What do you think will happen next week? Will I have the script planned out and be ready to write? What will the story be? I’m still not sure.
Half of October is already gone and I’ve been working on planning and plotting my novel. I’m not sure I’ve succeeded. Well at least not in the way that I envisioned a “real planner” would. perhaps I’m a combination of planner and a pantser
Planner v. Pantser
They are two approaches to first draft story writing. Why Planner and Pantser? Planners are writers who plan their novels, and Pantsers write their stories by the seat of their pants. Detailed outlines are the purview of Planners, typically completed before a single word of the actual story is set onto page.
Most of my life I have been a planner, I love my check lists and I live by my calendar. I carefully make sure I have all my to-do’s organized and worked out every evening before bed and like most planners, I sleep much better when I know what is on my plate for the next day. I know, of course, that things change and I am fully capable of changing course if an unexpected issue comes up. Having said that, I was fully prepared to be the same way about my writing.
I should have known better!
Turns out, I’m not so much into knowing every single detail of my novel before I start writing it. I tried, but besides feeling completely stressed out and uninspired, I achieved very little else in the past two weeks.
Last night, I sat at my laptop while watching some NaNoWriMo videos and began working in Scrivener in cork-board mode and the excitement of the story began to resurface. So, for what I can tell, being a planner in some aspects of your life does not mean you will be a planner as a writer. Although, I would not say that I’m a pantser either.
I have tried to write many novels. I’ve had a million ideas for novels. However, this is the first time I am actually going to put myself out there and write something. I say all that to say that I’m not sure how or where I fit in and honestly I’m not sure I want to fit in any of the boxes already laid out for me. So what, I’m not a planner and know every single little detail of the story before I write the story? Also, so what I’m not a pantser and I can’t just sit at my computer and start typing something without some sort of “map” to show me at least a direction? the point is to write and discover who I am as a writer.
A lot has happened this year. Some things have been great and others… well, not so much. I’m no longer bitter and right now I’m choosing not to fight the tides. Going with the flow has allowed me the opportunity to relax and see into the future a little better.
I remember a conversation I had with my father at a pretty young age when I revealed the fact that I wanted to be a writer. Perhaps a journalist…. the practical side of me knowing that a journalist would at least have a steady paycheck and that would make dad happy. It didn’t!!!!! I remember being told that writing was a hobby, not a profession and that I needed to get a profession where I would be able to support myself. Not bad advice but not great either. I don’t remember specifics at this point in my life anymore. I don’t know what happened once that advice was imparted but I believe that was the moment when I gave up my dreams of ever writing for a living. I didn’t even give it another try and I think I put away all my writing tools to focus on making my father happy.
Don’t get me wrong, we arrived at an agreement. I would not become a doctor nor a writer but I would be something that made both of us a little happy. It’s been a good run and I’ve enjoyed the benefits of being very good at what I do. However, as I said in the beginning of this post. A lot has happened this year……. some great and some not so much. In the midst of all the happenings I have set out a challenge for myself. I have found the courage to at least try to do what I want to do.
Write….. I’m going to write!!!!!
I’ve signed up for NaNoWriMo this year. If you don’t know what that is NaNoWriMo stands for National Novel Writing Month. In the month of November many published authors and some that are not published yet get together and form a community of writers who set goals for the month to write a novel or finish one… some make goals to edit a novel and get it ready to print and publish. This year, I’ve decided to enter and write 50,000 words of a novel I’ve been “cooking” up in my head. Through the month of November I will be writing and posting here with my progress. I don’t particularly care if no one reads it. This is for me, my dream, my life. As I said, some things that happened were good and some not so much but they all have allowed me to see that living others’ dreams is worth it. We all have disappointments but it’s far better to be disappointed having done something you loved and set your heart on fire than be disappointed having lived someone else’s life
A lot has changed this year…… and this is not the only dream I’m working on.